Grief

Over the past few weeks I've been reading a couple of things that today I've begun to piece together in my head. First- we all have this space in our lives- we fill it with so many things. Singles, like me, have more space than others. I've never had to put another person fully above myself other than God. There are definitely people in my life for whom I care much about, and who care about me. But mostly, there is a lot of space. Being the relational being God has made me, much of that space still tends to be filled with people. Highlights and lowlights in my life can mostly be defined through interactions with others. This has its own strengths and weaknesses.
Grief comes when people leave that space- my lifestage and life choices have made it so that people come into and leave that space very often. This is really difficult at times, especially when there is lack of closure. Recently I experienced this pain, and while before I assumed there would this chance to redeem all of the hurt, it now looks as though that redemption will have to come through other means. In the meanwhile, I am left with these random days of feeling loss.